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About Help Legal. Rape Daily Dose September 26,. In high school, a relationship can last only a few days or weeks, enough to get one through the social events of the season, which in this case were the Spring Formal and the Powder Puff Game. Today, I cannot recall which came first. I know this: I attended both the kegger stories followed dating game and the formal dance with a rapist. My rapist.

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